revealing monday :(

I was expecting a very wonderful day today but opposite happened. I never expected to see that post. It was extreme, really! Extreme to the point that my world has been affected and causing me to do a major turn around. As soon as I saw it, "clean break" ran in my mind. Actually, even that word after a while, I realized is not applicable because in the first place we are not together. :( I just thought that we have that something. Maybe it's just special friendship but can't be brought forward. I'm not sure what to do. I am still debating inside. Should I just disappear and pretend that what happened, from that super sweet first day until this hurtful moment, didn't actually happen? Wouldn't it be so immature? hay..I really don't know what to do! God. I don't know if this is a really big issue to bother me or am I just making this complicated? Oh please. I just wanted his assurance that he says the truth, that he meant what he said. If that is so, then i would believe him and disregard everything. But until then, I am still doubting with his loyalty. hay.. I feel unappreciated and disregarded. It feels like I am just the diversion, not the main reason. :( Honestly, I know in myself i've loved him ever since. And even though he had been through many relationships, I still like him. I'll be waiting for him no matter what. (God! I never imagined myself writing this pledge addressing to someone. But here it is! hola! Hope he reads this..)