i just realized. . .

Everything is making sense now. I just realized that that turning point in my life is really God's will. It's like everything is unfolding now. I believe that He gave me challenges I can overcome. That He has better plans for me. Maybe he was thinking that life with these people i'm with now is better than before. I trust His judgment. And I think He's right. As I assess myself, for the past 3 years i've been here, I feel happier. I feel safer. I feel a better person. That feeling of confidence and belief to myself, I think, is important for every person. For us to be able to face every challenge waiting ahead of us. And for us to grow in every aspect of a person. Good feeling inside will reflect on how we interact with others. That is also one thing. It is important for us to be socially inclined somehow. We cannot live alone, for no man is an island. Treating yourself well means you know how to treat others right as well. A good principle, indeed.

take me, i'll follow

Like that of the song, I want you to take me wherever you go.I want to be part of your world. Let me in because i want to see the things that you see. I would do those that you do. Learn things that you know. You must have been heaven sent. It must be you, whom God had given me. You came the right time so I believe it is you! This is why I'm not letting you go. WIll give you thousands of reason to stay with me forever. Try my best to make you happy and for the love to continue to blossom. Will just wait for the right time for us. I know you are worth the wait. Just promise you'll take care of my heart. That you'll keep me forever, for I am keeping you until we both shall live. Saying I love you is my way of keeping you. :)

xoxo,
A

the yellow light

I always say this and i won't get tired of telling you over and over again that communication really is one key to a relationship's success. Whenever, wherever or whatever you are doing, you'll be needing to communicate. To interact, to socialize, to catch up with an old friend, to solve distance problems of couples, to ease a grieving heart,to understand what has been misunderstood and even just to ride a public vehicle what we need is communication.

Lots of people are afraid to tell what they really feel. Maybe they just don't know how to say it, the approach and the right words to be used. Hard, indeed. But we have to face it. If we let things hanging for a long time, that might result to bigger and harder problem to solve. As early as possible, try to talk it over. Prepare yourself for every possible answers to your question. Anticipate worst cases, so even if it's that hurtful you'll have enough strength to face it. There will be high probability of making the right decision. It's because you've thought of it over and over again, which means, for the good of the many that choice has to be chosen.

This happens always, especially with couples. Problems, conflicts, misunderstandings, and even deception. Initially, we tend to overreact on things. We commit the mistakes we don't want to commit. We become impulsive, non-thinking creatures. But it's natural. You let your emotions flow, and released from its box inside you. But think of it, isn't it better for us to be relaxed at first. Be rational, and approach the matter at hand smoothly. Take it slowly. Be mature. Be extra careful of everything you want to do, for this will reflect your personality. This is your own way of saving yourself from, let's just say "embarrassment". Like that of the traffic light, it's not just green and red but there is yellow. In love, we do not always throw ourselves to every opportunity at hand. We also have to learn letting go and stopping. But before we achieve either way, we have to pass the center or the balancing part. We have to see things on both sides. That is possible through the yellow light. Make use of your yellow light. Have a yellow heart.

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stonewalling or not?

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Things always have two sides, positive and negative. Everything on Earth has its consequences, whether it be good or bad. No matter how fair you play, there will always be these people who will pull you as hard as they can just for their satisfaction. Selfish, but it's the reality. We have to learn how to dance well, so as not to be stepped on the foot. Yes it will be hard, because you have to test the waters first before doing any act. You'll be stepped on and on and on. But as you go again and again, you'll learn how to dance it, the right way. You'll be able to guard yourself from the things that hinder you from developing. This is known as getting immune or getting used to these things. Once we learn how to dance with the right song, we'll have better ways to handle things. You'll learn how to use what you have, to do things right. You'll know how to balance your mind and emotions given certain situations. This way, life is easier. Life is happier. It is perfect. . . But. . . F*! this is ideal! In reality, it's hard to do things with balanced use of the mind and the heart. The greater the want you have inside your heart, the harder it is for you to rationalize. Absurd, but it's true. Even myself, I am guilty of being impulsive most of the times. There is this feeling of fear inside me that blocks my rationalization of knowing the real deal before acting on it. I am afraid of depression from any negative response. I am scared of letting go. I am used to having everything I wanted, whether it's instant or not. I get attached to things that i know will be mine sooner or later. I weigh things for a short while, and see if it will really become mine. And in cases things go the other way around, I tend to repel, immediately. Maybe it's my way of saving myself from too much hurt. Because i'm afraid of getting hurt. I know what I want and if I want something but I'm having troubles getting it, that's when I formulate. I formulate things in my head. Things that, I think, would help me stand up and move on from that unpleasant event. I won't let myself be drowned to negativity of life. It's not how I plan to spend my young age. I have lots of plan. Plan of enjoying every single moment of my life. So, for me to achieve that, I resort to stonewalling. I refuse to converse things out. I leave things hanging. I've been like this ever since. And it is just now that I realize that I have to be strong. If I really want to be happy then I must learn how to face everything. I must be strong enough to handle things in my life, whether they're good or bad. It would bring too much pain but I have to feel it, to learn. So that next time, I already know what to do. I will be prepared enough to face the "reality". Will now stop doing stonewalling, and learn to settle things that need to be settled.

love, indeed.

They say, what makes the world go 'round is love. Everything is about love. To our family, friends, neighbors, school mates, and especially to our significant others. But what would you give just just to please our loved ones? Will it be "whatever it takes"? . . . .

There are these people who become blind because of love. The concept of what is right or wrong is becoming vivid. They are losing their sense of self, most of the times. Impulsiveness. Pleasure. Mistakes. More Mistakes. Destruction. Frustration. Sickness. Even, Death. These are the results of too much use of the heart without considering what the mind says. The heart, which is placed below the mind and supposedly used secondarily after the latter, becomes superior. We tend to be confused because there are those who are telling us to follow our heart. But what if the heart is yearning too much for love? People would tend to forget what their mind is telling them. I just don't understand why this happens. But what I know is i love the feeling of being in-love and getting that love back. It would look selfish, but, it's life. That's how life works. You just have to know how to deal with it. Love freely and wisely. Just be prepared of the consequences. Pray, and you'd know what to do.